Wednesday, December 3, 2008
Restoring Dreams.
Tired: exhausted, as by exertion; fatigued or sleepy. As defined by dictionary.com. The meaning was felt in every cell of my body, they whined at my consciousness begging me to go and lay down. Lay down and just close my eyes, but I knew if I did that I would most definitely fall asleep… And at the moment that was something that could not happen, I needed to stay awake. But why? I asked myself this question and could not come up with a very reasonable answer, If you need to sleep you usually just go lay down and sleep, right? Well no, I thought, It isn’t that easy. In order to go to bed I must…
Feed the dogs, let them outside, impatiently wait for them to finish their ‘business’ then let them back inside. Then after that I had to crawl to the shower (And of course before even stepping into the shower I had to take out my contacts, set them in their tray while pouring sterilized water onto them, and begin the careful precedure of removing all of my makeup), undress, open the sliding door, step in, close the sliding door, turn on the shower, shampoo and condition, shave, moisturize, scrub, rinse, rinse some more, turn off the shower, open the sliding door, step out (without tripping), grab a towel, and pray that the harsh cool air from the other regions of the house do not invade the bathroom. After the time in the bathroom has been spent I once more have to drag myself to my bedroom, throw on some night clothes, glob on lotion, brush my hair thoroughly, afterwards blow drying it, let it sit for half an hour, then brush it some more meanwhile picking up the straightener and setting to the long and miserable task of making sure every single hair on my head is perfectly straight; otherwise in the morning my hair would be unbearably curly and unable to straighten and therefore I would have to go to school with Jesus-Hair. But Oh no the tasks are not done there, after that I must let the dogs out once more, wait for them to finish (IMPATIENTLY), let them in and then if I am lucky I will get to go to sleep, Just in time of course because by that time all my energy has been used up and I am EXTREMELY tired.
Why go through all that trouble though? Some would wonder. And I often myself wonder and ask the same question, why do I take all that time just to keep myself up? What’s the point? Well, often enough I am faced with the puzzlement but the answer is quickly retrieved. Because I deserve to be beautiful, its true. And although it takes a long time, I deserve it. But how could that be the answer? How could “Because I deserve to be beautiful,” even be a reason for all of the actions that were listed in the above paragraph?! Well because every single thing listed above contributes to my beauty. Crawling, dragging, opening ‘strengthens’ my muscles keeping me fit. Brushing, lotion, showering, and straightening most directly keep me beautiful. And after all that is done my mind is (fried) even more weary than when I began to think that I was tired, making it even easier to achieve the beloved goal of falling asleep. And what is that old saying? Every girl deserves her beauty sleep. Every night when I lay myself to bed I remember that the days events have especially prepared me for the moment when my consciousness slips and my breathing becomes easy, Allowing me to fall asleep and let beautiful images fill my sub consciousness- These images renew (charge) my heart and mind, preparing me for the hardships of the next day.
Feed the dogs, let them outside, impatiently wait for them to finish their ‘business’ then let them back inside. Then after that I had to crawl to the shower (And of course before even stepping into the shower I had to take out my contacts, set them in their tray while pouring sterilized water onto them, and begin the careful precedure of removing all of my makeup), undress, open the sliding door, step in, close the sliding door, turn on the shower, shampoo and condition, shave, moisturize, scrub, rinse, rinse some more, turn off the shower, open the sliding door, step out (without tripping), grab a towel, and pray that the harsh cool air from the other regions of the house do not invade the bathroom. After the time in the bathroom has been spent I once more have to drag myself to my bedroom, throw on some night clothes, glob on lotion, brush my hair thoroughly, afterwards blow drying it, let it sit for half an hour, then brush it some more meanwhile picking up the straightener and setting to the long and miserable task of making sure every single hair on my head is perfectly straight; otherwise in the morning my hair would be unbearably curly and unable to straighten and therefore I would have to go to school with Jesus-Hair. But Oh no the tasks are not done there, after that I must let the dogs out once more, wait for them to finish (IMPATIENTLY), let them in and then if I am lucky I will get to go to sleep, Just in time of course because by that time all my energy has been used up and I am EXTREMELY tired.
Why go through all that trouble though? Some would wonder. And I often myself wonder and ask the same question, why do I take all that time just to keep myself up? What’s the point? Well, often enough I am faced with the puzzlement but the answer is quickly retrieved. Because I deserve to be beautiful, its true. And although it takes a long time, I deserve it. But how could that be the answer? How could “Because I deserve to be beautiful,” even be a reason for all of the actions that were listed in the above paragraph?! Well because every single thing listed above contributes to my beauty. Crawling, dragging, opening ‘strengthens’ my muscles keeping me fit. Brushing, lotion, showering, and straightening most directly keep me beautiful. And after all that is done my mind is (fried) even more weary than when I began to think that I was tired, making it even easier to achieve the beloved goal of falling asleep. And what is that old saying? Every girl deserves her beauty sleep. Every night when I lay myself to bed I remember that the days events have especially prepared me for the moment when my consciousness slips and my breathing becomes easy, Allowing me to fall asleep and let beautiful images fill my sub consciousness- These images renew (charge) my heart and mind, preparing me for the hardships of the next day.
--Cloud Envy.
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